God, I’m sorry that I hate these men today…

Today’s blog was supposed to be one to celebrate Female African authors, and the tremendous progress that we have all made.

But I can't help but feel shadowed by the sickness from the screams I heard yesterday.

I’ve always been the girl who adds;

‘As feminists we don’t hate men’ to a statement defending my feminism.

But today, allow me to hate these men.

Hear me out, it’s just today.

Allow me to hate the men who silently scrolled their timeline and stories yesterday and left it at that.

Allow me to hate the men who throw ‘logically’ in every statement like we are dense idiots who never use logic.

Allow me to hate my brother, my father, my boyfriend, my friends and my cousins today for being silent.

I’m a Christian leader, a big believer, but allow me to feel fed up of preaching on love.

Because love is the all they take.

Allow me to curse because I wanna say fucking and not ducking.

Allow me to hate men for being physically stronger than us…and using that to hurt us.

For making us feel bad for being feminists and half-loving us.

Allow me to hate men for all the rape and sexual assault.

…..ugh please allow me to hate men today.

Please allow me to look at my crush in disgust.

Just for today?

Yes, men you can make your own rendition of this and share how much you hate women…

At least you can start being honest about it.

I wanna celebrate women today, but not until I am allowed to say how much I hate all those men who violated that beautiful girl, yesterday.

So for IWD, allow me to hate these men.

Christians put your hypocritical pitchforks down.

I’ll love tomorrow, I promise…

I’ll go back to being good tomorrow…I promise

My estrogen will be up and I’ll be accommodating.

Maybe I’ll even remember the verses on love and forgiveness.

I’ll play dumb and shrug at misogynistic comments like you want me too.

I’ll be calm and reasonable, just how you like me.

I’ll be a good Christian tomorrow…I promise.

God;

God…I’m sorry that I hate these men today.

I mean, does that mean I hate you?

Because when I look at them aren't I supposed to see you?

I’m sorry that I hate these men today, because you teach me love.

I’m sorry that I’m shaking in hatred because you teach me stillness.

God, I hope the power, love and self discipline you teach me in Timothy will reign on me tomorrow.

But today….

Today, I hate these men.

It’s not a Happy IWD in Kenya, and in many silent parts of the world.

At least it isn’t for me.

Fuck the Break bias theme.

It’s the 21st century and men are still beating us and acting like our bodies aren’t ours.

Today’s book recommendation; The Bible.

Sending love and prayers to all women who feel less than today.